What was on my mind >>> MOTIVATING MYSELF

i don't know why i have been so down and gloomy for 3 months after the stupid incident
but i felt stupid making myself so low.
its not about being up myself but i have so lowering my standards in life
i felt stupid and worthless.
but then words of wisdom, i am better, i have skills and thoughts that could move mountains
yet for 3 months i have gone and stuck in a place saying i am worthless and ugly.
where did all my confidence gone?
i am better than all this. i have my standards. i just had to remind myself.
not standards for a guy or anything, just standards on how i live my life.
i will not bow down to anything that will bring me down.
people can look at you funny, but remember to look up to your creator.
why should i be embarrased?
whoever is looking at you especially the people who knew you tried something stupid
knows who you are and what you've done and been.
you are so higher than what you expected.
they are just wondering why you would do that.
just let go of that freaking mistake.
down let them get you down.
your standards do NOT ever let them down.
because when you are you are letting yourself down.
YOU ARE BETTER THAN ALL THIS. AND YOU KNOW IT!
you are who you are, whoever cannot receive DO NOT
DO NOT EVER deserve your love.
ever.
walk up straight, give em back that smile.
do not even start to even think what they say in their minds.
its worthless. you are who you are.
you are special and too bright a star to get down.
when you do, they have won. DO NOT EVER LET THEM WIN!
REMEMBER THE STANDARDS YOU LIVE ON!
hold God's hand and catch a breathe. :)

Resolution schmooolution..

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Questions and Status update.

I think I am slowly receiving the fact that I miss him. But still trying to grip on the fact that I neither in love or neither have a crush. Just a simple admiration and not seeing the face for quiet a while. Is a week too soon to say I miss?

Overthinking - Poem

Hanging in the balance

between a dream and reality

when wishful thinking overtakes a foolish heart

when hopes began to viral the mind

with picture perfect scenarios of the life long dream

when reality does not seem so pretty

a foolish heart

a weak mind

an infected stomach

filled with beautiful winged creatures

when the balance is heavy on one side

comes crashing down on reality

which will you still hold?

the hope and a fading memory

the smile of the one lingered and lost

or will it be the harsh step forward to move and forget

_by Pica_

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Me, myself and I - daily thoughts

Shuttershock

"Sometimes you just need to make yourself happy despite that everything seem so much in a bad state."

my ideas:

1. Go do your hair make it look different, go to the hair salon maybe

2. Play dress ups and go out with that funky outfit you never seem to wear outside your room

3. Be proud of yourself and smile

4. Start the smiling excercise (in front of the mirror, not in public)

5. Go outside and take pictures of nature ( to calm the inner self)


That's all I have for thoughts today.