The so called society that calls themselves church

A church is supposed to be a place of worshi

All i see in this place are groups, a group that secretly hates the group that controls the church .

Its funny how this society tunduk to the particular group that literally controls the church so wrong that we as a whole cannot accept their view still go along with it.
I ponder and wonder the thoughts that control this particular group. It seems it is inherited from their ancestors before them. Making the church a place of a made up kingdom. If this kingdom is interrupted by small beings or insignificant but will make a difference to their ways, they throw them out.

I dont understand the ways of this particular church but it seems like the growth of this church is slowly receeding. Yet obviously slowly.

Its like some kind of fenomenon that these groups tend to "rule" in church. They tend to not let people in. But always complaining that their ways aren't sufficient as a calling to the congregation. Newbies are forced to follow this "tradition" of wrong ideas. Many of them will give up and just leave. Some will just keep following them.

Are outsiders not allowed to think? To give thoughts?

Broken Hearts, lonely hearts...

Got this from instagram.. cucok deh for me...
1.At some point in your life, someone you love dearly is going to die. Be prepare for that day because my love, it will hurt like you’ve never been hurt before and leave you bleeding for years to come.
2. Just because you love him, it does not guarantee that he will love you back or be even remotely interested in you.
3. “I love you.” Does NOT mean “I”ll never leave you.” Neither does it mean “I love ONLY you.”
4. Some days you’ll miss him, it’s okay to let him know it but if he makes you feel embarrassed about it or if he seems indifferent about it, then baby girl I don’t care how much you miss him after that, you hold it in. You cry into a pillow on the nights that it’s too hard while wishing he would understand, but you never repeat it. I can tell you that it gets easier.
5. You should never have to fight for his attention no matter what the other option may be.
6.It will hurt when you stop talking as frequently as you used to and you will try to pull him back; Don’t. If he really wanted to talk to you, he would. I know it’s confusing and you ask yourself time after time again what you did wrong, but the answer is simple as there was nothing you could have done.
7. Addicts have kicked their drug habits in the past and so can you. I know it’s going to take a lot of sleepless nights and hurt and confusion but you can get over him.
8. It’s okay to still love him, even after all that. But my darling, stop making yourself weak. I know you will do anything for him but you have to remember your self worth.
9. If he makes you feel like another option among the other women in his life, begin to distance yourself from him. You’re NEVER just an option. You’re a choice and a damn good one.
10. I know it hurts and you feel like you’ll never love again but remember that one time when you had a crush on that one boy and eventually you got over it and started liking this boy? Yeah.
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the broken, the angry, the unloved

The urge to say what you wanna say 
is so high.. 
I could never think you were something of a similar kind to me. 
All broken up with the pressure
Wanting to Be free 
Wanting to be the hell you want
Wanting to just roam wherever the road 
Takes you.  

I wanna tell you hey I know your pain
Then again I realized in a second of a moment
You are too far to reach 
I have again gone beyond my standars
I have fallen again with a stranger
With you so beautiful and withered 
Needing someone to take your hands to pull you out
Yet I am in The exact same hole 

As if the universe played the same trick
Over and over again
Yet I fall back again and again
The question now is
Would you be with me, just for a moment
Just to let me know 
I've met you, known u, just to tell u are not alone
Might not be forever
But a little while
 I guess will be enough for me

Hey God, give me just this once 
A chance.. make it a while
Just so I could keep it
So I can smile
Let it end with a smile not with the same tears
I know how this ends, if you could make this story a little bit different 
I wont ask for anything more than this. . 
Please and please oh please
My heart sank with prayer
Hoping it would become of something real
Curled up in a corner watching the time go by.. 


After the second went by,
I realized, I dont have any obligations upon this feeling.. 
I can still annoy you
I can still make you smile
Without having u in my life 
Or in this matter the heart

You will always be just a thought I fell for
You are a thought.. 
You are my imagination running wild
Denying every bit of reality 
So I can keep watching right
There by your side.. 
You will always be you.. someone so far 
I dont think I will ever understand
Or ever know the truth about..
Just your reply has been my wonderful escape and joy to my world of wonders..
Let it be that way and I'll be on my way.. 
Wherever it leads me, hoping one day I will crash back into you.. 

Just a whim, just a thought, just a daydream,just a treasure, just my never-to-be..